rachel

hollowed eyes pale skin running from the darkness within my body lies listless you come to me in my dreams dancing through the clouds with stars in your eyes you're in another world and i leave myself to be with you again you smile kindly a smile of gratitude and friendship not enough you don't exist in my world but you speak to me and you say: you bury yourself a little further every day you're killing yourself trying to keep me and i'm only moving further away i watch your dancing movements i can remember your palms upon my face eyelashes flutter on my cheek your butterfly kisses lulling me to sleep

wish you could see me wish you could feel me to share what i am what i could be with you would make me complete i don't know who you are .................................. a year gone past the flowers of spring bury their heads in the ground insistent on hiding from the sun .................................. fragments of dusted over sentiment touching my thoughts my lips to your face buried head in lap eyes hidden outstretched in resistance, hands connected to what would would embrace envelop what i became part of another soul into myself taken control not in part in whole i sacrifice myself upon you staring as i fa

tears of blood drip down my face my eyes the windows that welcome you to my soul you see the words "i love you" written on the walls in hundreds each crossed out with an "x" paintings on the floor a young girl bound by gag and blindfold another sprawled on the cement surrounded by blood broken glass and razorblades pale skin streaked with trails of bloody crimson she is smiling for the first and last time the third a woman a young man and a baby the baby is dead parents hands are covered in blood mommy's tears won't help you now the last photo unfinished discoloured shows an angel trapped in a cage her wings ha